Gareth Williams continues to breach the Court Order.  On 6^th December 2004 he sent a message via school that he would not be bringing Melissa for the changeover because she had tonsillitis.  The GP Dr Bisarya would not give me any information; he wouldn’t even confirm that Melissa had been diagnosed with tonsillitis.  He said that I had to contact the father [even though he acknowledged that he is aware that I have problems with the father.]   He would only confirm that Melissa had been seen by a doctor at his practice but that he didn’t know which one.  He said that the “other person” was not there.  There are only 2 doctors there – himself and his wife!  Dr Bisarya was certainly speaking with caution.  Could he be just another dirty collaborator?  When I wrote requesting the medical notes as asked, I was informed that there was a £10 charge, just to SEE the records!  I was told that this was due to the “Data Protection Act”.  Now there’s a familiar Masonic sound bite!!!  I couldn’t help thinking that only days earlier I had done the decent thing when I found Mr Bisarya’s keys in his door as I was delivering his newspaper – I’d alerted him.  It’s a pity that he, especially considering his position, doesn’t recognise the word ‘DECENT’.  [My solicitor told me that if a client orders medical records via a solicitor, doctors charge anywhere between £25 and £50.  WHY???  Obviously, because doctors know that individuals can’t/won’t fork out that much and that they are allowed to steal it from the public purse instead, knowing that they don’t have to worry about being caught with/accused of having their paws in the till because they can claim it is perfectly legal.  Maybe, but it certainly aint moral.  Good God; how low can you get.  The fraud within the legal aid system by the slime pit of snakes – our ‘pillars of society’ is so blatant, it is mind blowing.  There is a deep spiritual and moral malaise and decay amongst so many professional persons, public servants and other leading figures in society.]  The c/o states that in the case of illness, changeover is still to take place on school premises at 3pm.  Illness is no excuse for preventing the children going to the other parent, unless the child is so ill that he/she is hospitalised.  GW didn’t take Mel to the doctor on the Thursday or even Friday of the previous week when she was off school, he left it until Monday – CHANGEOVER DAY.  According to her medical records, she was seen again by the GP on Thursday 9^th December.  It is recorded that she “is much improved now.”  So why didn’t GW arrange for me to collect her at 3pm at school on Thursday or even on Friday so that she could have been with us for at least the weekend?  He of course kept her off school until Monday 13/12/04 when it was his week to have the kids again.  My solicitor wrote to Amphletts on 14^th December requesting an explanation.  They continue to give us their usual 2-fingered salute - they didn’t even bother to reply.

On 27^TH JANUARY 2005, Melissa had her tonsillectomy.  It had been rescheduled for a date when she and J were staying with their father [of course.]  She was discharged the next day.   During the whole time that I was at the hospital, Mel’s father behaved abominably.  He refused to call a truce just for one day, despite telling Mel that he would.  He did the opposite – he threatened me and made various abusive and sarcastic comments and was constantly provoking.  He was forever scurrying off to snitch on me to nurses – any would do.  The doting father was not concerned about being with his daughter, he was too busy telling lies to all and sundry, stirring up trouble for me and being a right pain in the neck for the hospital staff [even during the time Mel was in theatre.]  In contrast, I had been genuinely friendly towards him - I’d tried to discuss Mel’s health with him, I’d asked him to join us in the playroom; I’d even invited him to play Snakes & Ladders with us….  I’d done everything in my power to avoid a confrontation to keep Mel and the atmosphere happy and relaxed and to prevent GW finding an excuse to have me thrown out.  However, despite the C/O stating that I was at liberty to visit my child in hospital and the fact that GW had signed an undertaking allowing me reasonable contact with Mel, he managed to ensure that I only got ½ hour with her after her op and 1 ½ hours with her the next day.  I was ordered to leave and not to return until 9.30am the next day.  I was totally distraught.  Mel wanted me to stay with her and was even more traumatised as a result of being denied that.  I was also prevented from being with my 6 year old daughter as she was being taken to theatre.   [After pressure from GW the ward sister told me that only one parent could go with her.  Why couldn’t that parent be her mummy - the parent who Melly loves and is relaxed with and who Melly wants holding her hand?  Anyway, there was no reason why we both could not have gone with her.  If problems had arisen, the staff could easily have thrown out whichever parent was causing the trouble.]  This all resulted because surgeon Mr Zeitoun went back on his word.  During our consultation last May [2004], he had said that visitation for the parents should be equal and that there was no reason why both GW and I could not stay overnight.  He had even suggested to GW [who was the awkward one, refusing mediation] that Mel could stay longer in hospital than is normally the case, to recover, and that I could have 4/5 hours visitation with her on one day and he 4/5 hours with her the next day… [Not that such a rule would ever have been enforced for GW; he doesn’t have to abide by any rules.  He is above the law.]   However on the day it was evident that Mr Zeitoun [just like all the rest] had been forced to kowtow to some other authority – the medical Masonic fraternity?   I was stunned and furious when he said that he had just asked Mel [who had only just come out of theatre and was feeling groggy and vomiting under the effects of the anaesthetic and morphine, and breathing from her oxygen mask] which parent she wanted with her as she couldn’t have both of us.  [It didn’t seem to matter that I had made sure that GW and I were getting along reasonably well when he was actually sat with us and not tale-telling during the period prior to her op.  In fact Mr Z had been monitoring us.]  What the hell is a registrar doing asking a child of 6 years of age – an abused and terrified child – to choose between her mother and her father?  Melissa knew that she had to choose him, for one reason she was staying with him that week and for another she is being forced by him to repeat to ‘important’ people what he tells her to say.  She dare not disobey him and speak the truth.  [She later told me that she wanted me to stay with her but that she was scared of what her dad would say.  My children frequently tell me that when they are at their father’s they have to pretend  - all the time [that they like him, that they dislike me…]  In any case, didn’t Mr Z realise that she couldn’t possibly have been thinking straight so soon after an operation?  How could a man of Mr Zeitoun’s stature ask a child of Melissa’s age such a question?  His behaviour was breathtakingly stupid and irresponsible.  This is especially so because he knows the history – in detail.  When I reminded Mr Z that he has more than ample court documentation showing that my children have suffered more than 6 years of abuse by their father, that the social workers have reported widely their fears that my children are being primed [not to mention that they have reported repeatedly that GW fails to co-operate with them, that I am a taboo subject etc etc, also that GW constantly breaches court orders…] he declared that GW had not been present when he had spoken with Mel.  I informed him that Mel would have been thoroughly coached by her father in what to say before she arrived at hospital; not that he needs to do that anymore, my kids are well versed by now in how to behave and what to say to people such as doctors, nurses, teachers, social workers, welfare officers…  I also reminded Mr Z that GW has made constant malicious allegations to all sorts of child welfare agencies over several years and all have been unfounded.  Has Mr Zeitoun no idea about the torment, fear and suffering of abused kids?  He should’ve been concerned about Melissa’s welfare, about the fact that she is being abused and he should’ve been concerned about the harassment of the nurses by GW.  They did not have the time to waste pandering to his pathetic, irresponsible and despicable behaviour [whose ill-will towards me knows no bounds], they were too busy saving children’s lives.  More than 6 years on after giving GW the elbow and he is still a nasty control freak and a bully.  He behaved more despicably and pathetically than I could ever have imagined - he was like a 3 year old, constantly scuttling off telling tales to mammy.  Didn't any kid ever tell him off for that sort of behaviour when he was in the school playground?  Why couldn’t he drop it for just one day, on a day when Mel faced a life or death situation? [since anything can happen during an operation, no matter how routine it may be.]  What is his problem and why does everyone in positions of authority give him free reign to continue in his nefarious ways???  Why will no one stand up to him???  Why do they support him, which, in the doing, is to the severe detriment of Jordan and Melissa???  Does nobody care about the SUFFERING of little children???  Even the social workers [helpful as they have been to some degree] only skimmed the surface in their reporting and for the large part preferred the safe option of sitting on the fence.  Gareth Williams was verbally abusive towards them too, yet that wasn’t reported.   I can only assume that they too are intimidated by him.  The Headmaster Mr Geraint Williams went one further – he blatantly sided with the child abuser GW and threatened me – with an injunction, just because I had been telling mothers at his school the truth.  Mr Zeitoun, who is in a position to prevent the abuse of children and who has a duty to do so, has in fact shown himself to be just another member of the medical establishment who is actually aiding and abetting a child abuser.

Senior Staff nurse Carol Dowling [the same nurse I had spoken at length with last April at Mel’s pre-op consultation] with back up from the ward sister remained extremely sympathetic and supportive and had tried her best to persuade GW to agree to equal visitation on a rota basis.  Carol had even tried to persuade Mr Z that this was the best solution under the circumstances.   It was she who pointed out that GW did at first agree to me staying overnight, then he’d changed his mind and had offered me 4 hours with Mel, which he later retracted such that it was evident that no matter what he had initially agreed or suggested, he was always going to go back on his word - such were the cruel games that he loved to play.  She was aware that GW was objecting to anything I did or said.  He was constantly opposing me, just for the hell of it.  For example Mel said she was cold and wanted to get into bed, I was just about to help her when her father ordered her not to.  I had to compromise and suggest she wear her gown.  I asked him to shut the window because of the draught but he made an excuse as to why it should stay open.  I had to back down.  He did not care about Melissa’s comfort or well being.  I’d been the mature, responsible, caring parent; I was even genuinely nice and pleasant towards him on the following day - asking him how Mel had been during the night and I was even cracking little jokes but GW had refused to reciprocate; he had been hell bent on war.  Of course, it didn’t matter what Carol knew or what she thought or what she said.  Lovely as she is, she is only a relatively low grade female, with no power and no influence.  Someone like her, no matter how good she is at her job, would never in a million years get to be in such a position.  Those positions are reserved for the liars and deceivers amongst us; the ones [usually men] who get there with a lot of help from organised criminals, such as the Masonic fraternity.                                 

As regards the tonsillectomy, I never wanted Mel to have an op and she would almost certainly not have needed one if she hadn’t been subjected to years of abuse by her father, which caused her constant stress, resulting in repeated illnesses.  The anaesthetist confirmed my belief that enlarged adenoids and/or enlarged or infected tonsils are the result of repeated infection, and that the main cause of that is stress.

So what now for the evil plotters of the Old Boys Network?  Will I be dragged back into another one of their kangaroo courts yet again?  [GW threatened repeatedly that this is the plan.]  Is there going to be a letter from Mr Z in support of the despicable GW, saying something along the lines that ‘mother’ was argumentative and wouldn’t accept his decision?   [There has never been a letter of criticism directed at GW from any member of staff in the medical field who have witnessed countless times his vile behaviour.]   Incidentally, and as advised by senior staff nurse Carol Dowling, I asked for a letter from Mr Z or another registrar confirming that Mel was well enough to come to me on the following Monday as per the C/O.  This request was refused, even though the surgeon who performed the op, Mr Usanov, had said that GW should hand her over to me, which meant that if GW did not comply, he would again be in breach of the order.  Neutrality being the theme throughout, in July 2004 District Judge O W Williams warned that ‘this constant warring of parents is doing the kids no good whatsoever’ and that the next step would be that J & M would be taken into ‘care’.  Are the legal fraternity now plotting that one of their members [some biased Judge] will now be able to award GW full residence of my children on the grounds of this latest incident, which resulted in Mr Zeitoun’s intervention?  The organised criminals of the judicial system will [as is always the case] bury the truth and will twist and turn the facts so that the next Judge will be able to rule with a clear conscience that ‘mother’ should be the one forced to accept much reduced contact with her children [which will eventually lead to no contact, as was the case for GW’s battered ex wife when she was eventually forced to run for her life from her marital home.]  He will be able to reason something along the lines of: “It was the final straw that these parents couldn’t even get along with each other when their young daughter was in hospital; a registrar had to intervene and he threatened that he might have to hail security and turf them both out.  Finally it was mother who was ordered to leave, only minutes after her daughter had just awoken from an operation.”      

Mr Z granted me only ½ hour with Mel; that was significantly less than Judge Hedley had made me verbally agree to last April [2004.]  Is Mr Z punishing me because I was able to use him to gain a small victory [an overruling of Judge Hedley’s order] in court last July?  It would seem that the funny handshake brigade are reminding me that no matter what the appearance of normality, fair play, uprightness and what’s right for the kids, they are telling me that they are still evil-minded, still up to their dirty tricks and still in control.  They seem determined to engineer my biggest dread – the removal of my children from me.  To achieve this they won’t allow me public sympathy of being denied my children through imprisonment for contempt of a gagging order; instead they will continue to work slyly and deviously, as they do with all their targets.  They do this because they know they can; they know there aren’t enough victims [as yet] who would believe people like me.  They wear their prey down by relentless provocation, relentless legal actions, relentless accusations leading to investigations, relentless perverting of justice, relentless mental torment, relentless fraudulent activity, relentless time wasting nonsense…  It is the only way they can work; they cannot face the glare of public scrutiny.   Our courts and authorities are now decayed, artificial, putrid, outlawed and obscene.  Most officials are liars and thieves and the rest totally compromised.               

But, no matter what the brotherhood do, they can’t pin anything on me because I have TRUTH on my side and God’s guiding light.  All they have is a mountain of LIES and the Devil’s deceptive ways.  Despite the extremely taxing circumstances, I have been able to be whiter than white and ten steps ahead of my persecutors.  God gave me the tools to be able to do that.  They know now that no matter how much provoking they do, or how many challenges they give me, I am not going to buckle under and give them an excuse to deny me my kids.  I think they know now that I am just going to ride it out, come what may.  They must realise that in the end I will find justice and the kids and I will get the protection we need.  All I have to do is carry on doing what I have for the past 6 years and bide my time.  All I have to do is trust in God to give me guidance and the strength to continue.  He hasn’t let me down yet.  I’m certainly not going to slip up on a banana skin and do something stupid that would give the fraternity what they want.  I must admit though there are times when I do lose heart and what materialised in hospital was one of those times.  I was so close to losing it; so close to erupting in absolute rage.  But something made me keep my composure.  I really was beginning to wonder though how I was going to carry on and cope with all this cr..p – such unbelievable underhandedness; such falsehoods; such secretiveness and evil manipulations; such jiggery-pokery and such serious dereliction of duty…. and I was losing faith.  But when I look back I notice that whenever things got really bad, it wasn’t long after and good things started to happen – such things always totally took me by surprise.  It just tells me that there is something or someone [God or whoever] that is so much bigger and more powerful than me and everyone else, directing things.  All I have to do is give my best - speak truth, seek justice, do the right thing by others, listen to my conscience… and I can’t go far wrong.  If things don’t go the way I expect them to, then I know that something is happening for a reason and the time isn’t right for certain things.  Good things come to us eventually.  We have to be patient.   I’ve come to realise that I just have to persevere, no matter how tired or ill or weary or stressed or frustrated or disheartened I feel.  I know that God won’t test me beyond my limitations.  He is true to his word.  I truly believe now that the parasites in public office and the court vipers are worried sick about exposure.  The whole fetid pool must now be torched with the truth and light of full disclosure.  Full exposure is all that is needed - total eradication of all Secret Societies with their merry band of crooks, and with that - all corruption - will soon follow.    It cannot be far away now.